Who would've thought a feeling so strong could be gone by answering a simple, yet personal question of which would've normally been taboo to ask? Never I.
I'm comfortable with who I am, and you should be too.
This isn't the end of a chapter, it's the start of a new story.
I'm not afraid to be open, say my views, never have been. What has always scared me is people getting too close for comfort, too personal. Now I'm not so scared. I have my moments, but that's because of trust issues. If I think I can trust you enough, I'll open up to you. If you're not there for me, but want to know the latest 'gossip' then you can forget it and buy HEAT magazine instead.
Although I've been really ill for a while with the flu, possible swine flu (doctor diagnosed me over the phone) not many people have asked how I am, which makes me feel a bit meh.. But being at home on my own since Tuesday has got me to thinking although I can't sleep at night because I'm shivering or boiling over, I'm happy. That may seem strange but I can't really complain. The friends that I do have mean lots to me and there are certain individuals who I never would've thought would be such good friends.. I don't need to worry about those who aren't. If the effort isn't being made on their side, then there isn't much more i'm prepared to do, I'm tired of fighting a losing game, so good luck to you.
I specifically wanted to mention my good friend Chris in this post as he's really made me realise a lot lately and we've had great times. Out of everyone, even though we sometimes disagree on things, you're my favourite guy to talk to. (You're probably reading this and being modest) =]
Hopefully I'll be back to 100% health so I can see you all soon (well those that matter) Look after yourselves!
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