Larynx

Today I wake very frustrated as I have the sorest throat EVER. It seems to have gotten worse over the course of 3 days.

This is not only frustrating because it's uncomfortable, but because I have a whole list of songs I want to record and upload. Not only at home, but band practice which I haven't been to in yonks (it seems). Without vocals, there's nothing for me to work with! This makes Mia an unhappy bunny :(

So, here I am asking if anyone out there knows any quick and effective ways of making the soreness dissapear? Let me know! :)

In the meantime I'm going for a drive, get some fresh air. Bfn!

Regrets or experiences?

Okay so yesterday I did something I probably shouldn't have.. I'm strong enough to deal with what happens after but I know that they're most definitely not, well from what has been shown. I guess i'm more emotionally stronger than I used to be. A lot more.

Although saying that, the one thing that I want (apart from my teaching career, house and to travel around the world) is someone to share everything with, otherwise there's no point. Yeah there's personal gain, thinking you're all tough and independent because you're doing everything alone, but the day will come when you'll want someone to be by your side, know that they're there for you no matter what. To make it basic - Love.

The majority of us will know what that feels like, and personaly I don't think anything compares to that warm feeling. Even the feeling of lust, it's exciting but comforting at the same time.

Myself, I crave being close to others. I've said this recently to two of my close friends in a deep conversation we had. I respond more to touch than anything else. I like being close to people, I guess it's a comfort thing. Obviously I realise this isn't always a good thing as it can lead to the wrong sort of attention, when being close comes naturally to me.

I'm not looking, but hopefully the right guy for me will come along and take me for me, however much of a pain in the arse I may be. :D

New Age

It's funny how you can think you want something, convince yourself you're nothing without it, but one little moment or realisation can change it all..

Who would've thought a feeling so strong could be gone by answering a simple, yet personal question of which would've normally been taboo to ask? Never I.

I'm comfortable with who I am, and you should be too.

This isn't the end of a chapter, it's the start of a new story.

I'm not afraid to be open, say my views, never have been. What has always scared me is people getting too close for comfort, too personal. Now I'm not so scared. I have my moments, but that's because of trust issues. If I think I can trust you enough, I'll open up to you. If you're not there for me, but want to know the latest 'gossip' then you can forget it and buy HEAT magazine instead.

Although I've been really ill for a while with the flu, possible swine flu (doctor diagnosed me over the phone) not many people have asked how I am, which makes me feel a bit meh.. But being at home on my own since Tuesday has got me to thinking although I can't sleep at night because I'm shivering or boiling over, I'm happy. That may seem strange but I can't really complain. The friends that I do have mean lots to me and there are certain individuals who I never would've thought would be such good friends.. I don't need to worry about those who aren't. If the effort isn't being made on their side, then there isn't much more i'm prepared to do, I'm tired of fighting a losing game, so good luck to you.

I specifically wanted to mention my good friend Chris in this post as he's really made me realise a lot lately and we've had great times. Out of everyone, even though we sometimes disagree on things, you're my favourite guy to talk to. (You're probably reading this and being modest) =]

Hopefully I'll be back to 100% health so I can see you all soon (well those that matter) Look after yourselves!