Good riddance 2008

Just like to say that i can't wait for 2008 to be over. I'm MAJORLY looking forward to a new year, new starts, meeting new people and for things to be different.

New years resolution? To keep true to myself, because there were times where i found myself turning into someone i didn't want to be. 2009, i'm gonna speak my mind, do what i want and get to where i want to be. No more bullshit.

I hope everyone has an awesome new year ! :)

Maybe there's beauty in goodbye?

Boxing day madness!

Haha today... Oh my goodness.. Work could not have been more hectic.
Customers swarmed the place. I was beggining to think the television section had turned into a market! Seriously, it was that bad.

Along with the crowd, by chance i spotted my dad, brother and cousin come into the shop. My dad wanted to buy a 40" Sony television for our living room, so obviously getting that sorted was my priority.

I go around looking for a manager to discount it for him. In this busy time, as you can imagine, this wasn't the easiest of tasks. Anyways, eventually i managed to grab one of my line managers - literally, and asked if i could use him for a second.
Him, in a festive mood and unaware it was my dad who we were walking and talking to shouted around to the other guys 'Did you hear that lads, she wants to use me!'.
Me: 'Raj, meet my dad'. His face = PRICELESS. He actually started choking on the sweet he was sucking out of shock and embaressment. Fucking brilliant! XD

Christmas Fun

Hi all!

Today, on christmas eve.. like ya do, i did all my last minute christmas shopping.
I say shopping, but this was more of a crazy spree of some sort. I bumped into a handful of friends from my old college, saw a few old faces and also spotted Chico from X-Factor in Enfield Town.

On the way home i got convinced to hijack a bollard - like ya do. So, after no thought atall we threw it in the boot of the car so now i have one of those to customise XD

If you asked me yesterday if i was looking forward to christmas, i would've said no (which i did to a close friend) but now i am, because there are lots of new opportunities, and a new year = a new start :) Bring on 2009!

Happy Christmas everyone! :)

P.s to the chav that was playing loud music in the tesco traffic jam, i think my mmmbop prevailed! Haha. Sucker.

:D

I found a pretty cool song today - 'Me and Mia' :D Haha. Something random, but it cheered me up. Check it out.

Cutting the ropes.

What can i say? Im upset, hurt.. and most of all i feel let down. I just feel stupid for thinking things could be different. I'm not one for expressing when i'm upset, but this song pretty much sums it up.

A series of unfortunate events

So, here i am - home alone.

I somehow always get the place to myself when nothing's happening >:(
My cats are ripping shreds out of eachother and i'm sitting on my bed thinking over the eventful day i've had.

I set my alarm for 6:00am this morning, woke up, then went back to sleep for another hour - my usual routine. Except, this time i was having a deep dreaming session and never woke up 'till 8:30 (i had to be at work by 9) So i literally jumped out of my bed and got ready in like 10 minutes (personal best), skipped breakfast and ran out of the door, racing like a speed cat to get to electrical heaven.

That was okay, i managed to get into work on time without running over any pedestrians, however, I later went into the womens' toilets at work this afternoon only to discover the economy handwash was playing up, so i pushed down on it, but nothing was coming out, so i tried once more for luck and ended up spraying (thick) white hand wash over the crutch of my black trousers. Fucking great! You can imagine what that looked like, and it was a bugger to clean!

I also nearly ended up fainting whilst on shop floor due to not eating since the evening before and had been running around the shop (literally) from 9-5. Witnessing a customer nearly walk into the window thinking it was the door also added to the lightheadedness. Gave me a bit of a headrush XD

And now, to top it all off, there's some whining cat outside in my road, i can't see the thing but it can miaw for Britain. I love cats and all, but this is just taking liberties XD

& for the record Bex, it's totally over. I couldn't care less about y'know what :) I'm better without. Thanks for being an amazing friend. Don't know what i'd do without ya!

Whatever.

This is one of those days where i'm feeling so friggin' confused.. I mean, how would you feel if a group of people had already judged you before meeting you? Especially if you've changed since anyways. It's just a piss take..

We all make judgements on people, it's a part of life. Yeah fair play, but it isn't fair when the one who's telling these people is someone close and what's being told is negative. I couldn't give a damn really what they think, it's just the principal of it. I'm here, talk to me. Not people who don't know me from their elbow! It's none of their business. I'm sick of people pushing me that little bit further each time assuming i'll be cool with it.

How's that for airing out my opinion?
Nice isn't it..?
Well I sure feel alot better.

If you wanna be the teacher's pet, then baby you just better forget it!

Today at my placement the children were singing 'Holy night', but not your traditional version - instead a slightly more modern version by 'AJ & Aly' two sisters who's debut track was 'Potential break-up song' quite a while back..

They sang it suprisingly well, but i know for sure when i have my own class they're all gonna be dressed up in funky ties and school uniform and learn 'Teacher's pet' from the movie 'School of Rock'. Going to mould them into a class of mini rockers & hopefully limit the number of chavs in London during the process XD

Mirror.

G'evening blog readers,


Damn.. Feels like ages since i've posted on here.. Just been so absorbed in other things lately, that it hasn't come to my attention to update on here, but nonetheless, Mia is back :)
Laying in bed, looking out of the window with a view of the night got me thinking about stuff.


Alot of things have changed in my life recently, from small things such as completely re-arranging my room around to things such as changes in my overall approach to life and the people around me. It's hard to explain exactly how i feel, because to be honest, it's ever-changing, but all i know is that things are different now.


When i get moments to myself i think about everything and what my priorites were in the past and how i dealt with things. One thing i realised is that i put myself down an awful lot, still do sometimes, be it due to bad experiences or whatever. Years ago i used to be the girl that wouldn't let anything bother her, had that no-nonsense attitude, y'know? Then with time it got pushed below the surface and things changed like everything does, and yeah, it's to be expected. Things change, it's just dealing with it that's sometimes the difficult part to comprehend.


I used to wonder how i went from being so strong and focused to a girl who was constantly unsure of what she wanted in most major aspects of life. I write in past tense as this is no longer the case. Thank God (or Allah if you prefer). Now it's a case of doing what i want, and not letting peoples' opinions affect my decisions, because at the end of the day we all get choices in life, and they're individual. A sheep is not what i want to be, really.


Also, I don't know what the hell's happening to me lately, but i find myself becoming more daring and adventurous with certain things.. I seem to be saying and doing things that i wouldn't have thought to even attempt, and it seems to have positive effects. I now look forwards instead of taking steps back, and laugh instead of sit there in silence.


[Kill your doubt with the coldest of weapons - confidence]


I miss my close friends who are away at uni :( Can't wait to see them soon. The thing that's amazing is that we can go for several months without catching up, then when we do meet up, we're still as close as ever, just with a hell of alot more to talk about! :) Same goes for that special one that makes me smile, and walks in when the world walks out. Not many people have the ability to keep me on the right track, calm me down when i'm mad, or make awesome chicken pasta salad, so thank you for that :) x

My new poem 'Reflection'

I wrote a new poem yesterday to add to my depressive collection. Yuh, life's great atm! XD

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A vulnerable petal
That’s all I saw
Easily to manipulate
With the softest core

I played mind games
I led you on
Any song I sang
You sang along

I made life hard
Oh that’s for sure
You can’t reach up
When you’re on the floor

I made life hell
I made you hate
I made you plead
I raised the stakes

Your heart I broke
A thousand times
Took pleasure out of
My guilty crimes

Still you are here
In front of me
The reflection oh so clear
I step back once
Forward twice
And realise you’re not here..

Being pensive with pens

It is clear to see that there are many various forms of talent in our day and age. All considered to be somewhat 'unique', however socially incorrect or disagreed with they are. So i therefore feel it is my responsibilty to hereby present to you, ladies and gentleman - 'The pensive pen man'.

Amazing huh? Yeah i think so too XD

He doesn't want his real name mentioned, so we'll just call him, i dunno.. 'Adam', for conversations sake. (Check right hand side for link to his blog - many other unique things there)

Wanted.

If you see this bear anywhere. Please turn into the police - Dead or Alive. His name - Ham head.. MO hamhead.

Hehe..

Just thought i'd post this pic of myself and the new addition to my non-existing teddy bear collection XD

He was won for me by my Phillipino friend at the fair inside Alexandra Palace on Fireworks night, which may i add was brilliant.
Had an awesome evening with me two lads - jigging to High School Musical music and watching 'Turkish Starwars' (Adam quote XD) a mix of eurovision song-contest style music and high quality fireworks. LOL.
Will deffinitely be going next year :)

Retro!!

So, life seems to be going well at the moment..

Started my work placement yesterday at my old primary school - having a blast! The kids are all so well behaved (suprisingly) and i'm being called Miss K by a bunch of cheeky year fours. Cute eh? :) I also got offered a job the same day, with the help of a friend of mine (Thank you) and heard the great news that my godfather's cancer has now cleared from all the chemotherapy he's been going through. Really happy about that :D

Oh oh and learned the tabs for the beggining of 'Killing me softly' and 'Numb' on the keys, getting there :P

I could be all deep and personal and go into one, but y'know what? I'm not going to. Not this time. I'm bored of waiting for things to happen. I've learnt that if you want to do something, go for it! And if something's meant to happen, when the moments right it will, so in the meantime, I'm going to do what i want! Be spontaneous, risk it. Have fun! Whatever. Life's too short to be worried about certain things, especially when they're out of your control. My real friends will be there no matter what and this is only a small chapter of life, so bring it on!

Lately met some awesome new people, and am pretty optimistic about the future :) Okay, so i've learnt i can't play Spiderman on Xbox 360 for shit. But i had a good 'ol try! XD

Today, i found a re-released old time favourite thing of mine. You might recognise it. Brings back so many memories! I used to have one when i was young. Looking through the lenses at 3D photos (well they appear so) was amazing as far as i remember. Infact i love it so much i'm gonna order me one and collect the disks for it. Shall be the retro things i look out for :D



Look familiar?

New Song.

New Paramore song - Decode (not to be confused with Decoy, another awesome track) is amazing! Just discovered it today and it's been on repeat since. The film twilight looks rather interesting too.. I hadn't seen anything about it before i saw Paramore were featured on the tracklist. Again i can relate to this soo much! I think it's the whole feeling vulnerable but being strong thing again.. and just not knowing how you've got to where you are now with someone, to the stage where things are pretty much screwed.

Anyways, i won't sidetrack..I was talking to someone about a new project ( i say project, it's more for fun) that i wanted to do - another part of Mia you've not seen. With enough dutch courage, hopefully soon you'll know what i'm talking about!

I can't sleep again.. what a bugger :( and i can't find my Sony Ericsson phone charger.. Argh!
& i need a hug. Volunteers? :)

'Evening m'lovelies

Do watch: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UHrk5sFoPhY

xox

Lights and Buzz

A deep and meaningful conversation with a friend yesterday and a quite awesome view from my friend's new flat has led me to review things - Life, friends etc.

Me and Hus mou were discussing how much everyone has changed and grown up and are consequently more descisive about what they want in life, it's just actually getting there that can be tough. But hey, if you want something enough you'll do all in your power to get it, right?

After seeing the night view outside my ex Sunday husband's flat XD (just..wow, the lights were so nice) and then chatting with Hus in my car for about an hour, it really did make me think.. How much we've grown up, matured and have that determination and drive to get to where we want to be in life, whether it be relationship-wise, career-wise.. complete independence, whatever. Me and H came to the conclusion in most aspects of life the key is communication. Without it we'd all be in limbo, unsure of things.

Sometimes it's a case of trial and error. You try something out, see if it's for you. If not, move on with the reassurance of knowing you done everything you possibly could. If it is for you, then that's even better. You've acheived whatever it is you set out to.

Just remember - You regret the things you DON'T do more than the things you do.

20th Birthday, a hint of theatre & and several televisions left on..Is power saving dead?

So, was my twenteenth on Monday. A fairly quiet one i'd say. I was expecting rock&roll, singing and an evening to remember. Last thing i was expecting to see was people getting down and dirty publicly!

As me and m'lovely were waiting for a bus home from Enfield town, guess what we saw.. The big widescreen tv's in Pearsons all left on in the window display. This was unusual as you'd think someone would've switched them off to prevent wasting energy and all that power saving shabizzle. They were all on the same channel - TMF (The Music Factory) but as it was late at night, hardcore porn was playing. Each and every television in sync with eachother, i couldn't beleive it.. A few people walking by noticed it, but others oblivious.. Regret not taking a picture. Was quite a funny ending to an awesome night :)

P.s Mr (..sensored) No i will not marry you..No deal!

Ti's the season to be jolly :D

As im sure you're all aware, winter has arrived :) My favourite time of the year for sure. Nights out in London, trying to keep warm, everyone in gloves and hats and not forgetting trips to the theatre (something makes it just that little more special in winter..).

What reminds me of winter most is evenings in London, all wrapped up. My 19th & Luke's 21st being an awesome example :D

There are certain things such as christmas decorations up, festive tv shows, and most importantly music that emphasise the fact that it's the winter season. I thought i'd share with you just a few of my personal choices of song (new and old) that seem to remind me of winter.

My top 10 (in no particular order) are:

1. Set fire to the third bar - Snow Patrol ft. Martha Wainright (This one reminds me of winter most.. <3

2.My Immortal - Evanescence (Received Evanescence's first album as a christmas present from my dad, who also likes Evanescence :) This was the first song i played on repeat on Christmas day)

3. October - Evanescence (Not only is it my birth-month, t'is also a relaxing tune :D)

4. Wires - Athlete (about a newborn baby in hospital around christmas time, just a really touching song)

5. Hometown Glory - Adele (the first time i heard this song it gave me shivers, literally.. the piano is amazing, deffinitely a winter song)

6. The special two - Missy Higgins (One of my favourites, love the piano and the song has helped me get through tough times - relationship wise)

7. Im with you - Avril Lavigne (A key song. For me, this song feels like that innocence in wanting to belong somewhere/with someone)

8. I don't love you - My Chemical Romance (Listen to this when i'm feeling vulnerable.. wondering if they actually care?)

9. Misery business - Paramore (waiting with Leanne and adam in the freezing cold in the queue to see Paramore at Brixton academy, i can't even begin to explain how cold it was! But way worth it, losing my voice however, wasn't as pleasant..)

10. Rooftops - Lostprophets (Yet another cold experience waiting for a band. Myself, Yasmin, Sujata, Sumit and Leanne waiting outside HMV in London waiting to get our Lostprophets albums signed and to meet the lads. Again, way worth it. I shook guitarist Lee's hand. I haven't washed it since! (Only joking..)

==Hold Your Head Up High==

A poem that i came across..<3






So hold your head high gorgeous,
People would kill to see you fall,
In the dead of the night they can’t hear you screaming
You swear revenge, against them all.


So stay strong beautiful,
It won’t matter it they think less of you here,
But you cry by the window when wishes in moonlight don’t come true
Doesn’t mean you have to fear.


So never take the words he said to heart darling,
He has no idea what he meant,
To you it meant a life time,
To him, a lie worth less than a cent.



So don’t drown yourself in what you call medicine honey,
It will only do you harm,
because you never got drunk enough to get him off your mind.


So don’t believe you will never amount to anything sweetie,
You truly have no idea what your worth,
I see what you’re trying to hide from me,
I understand how much you’re hurt.





So don’t be afraid to crumble love,
Have you even forgotten who you are?
You walk around thinking you aren’t beautiful,
The truth could never have been more far...





So when you forget about him,
Don’t regret the pain you felt,
It’ll only make you better
And you’ll know how to play the hand you’re dealt.


So hold you head high gorgeous,
Show the world your fine,
Don’t give in to the heartache,
Because People would kill to see you fall...

Updateage

Herro people :D

I'd say it's a pretty nice morning - not too cold, not too hot. Anyways, just a little update. Yesterday i went to the gym, and also managed to get one of my friends to join too (go me!) In addition to getting let off £5 the other day, we didn't have to pay for the gym this time XD Oh, and that included swimming after if we chose to!

So, the gym. Started back properly yesterday, and decided to go three days a week with the aim of losing some weight (a little over a stone) and toning. I always got bored of gym, but feeling more determined now! I also saw a semi-pro wrestler in there.. ;) hehe. I'll keep ya updated =) x

When boredom strikes..

Got home from an excruciately long and boring day at work, know that i really need to catch up with sleep, (having not slept properly for the past 4 days) but i just can't! So.. this is where Mia's creative juices comes out. (on msn - no nudity was involved) Lovely picture, don't ya think? :P Awesome people right thur!

Untitled

Hello loyal readers :)
Hope you're all fine and dandy :P

For today, i'll just leave you to read a small poem i wrote yesterday.

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Through these years
all this time
we've been starcrossed
out of line
we keep meeting
take your time
I promise i'll be here

We hold back every time
even through the perfect night
something seems to steal the light
but still i see you shining bright

October rain distant claims
everythings a mess
a wink, a touch, a hint of lust
yet everything's in jest

At the end, feeling faint
nothing did go right
your heart, your head, that cosy bed
are slipping out of sight

You creep downstairs and take a pause
will you change the scene?
confusion rushing through your veins
what's come and gone has been

You layed her down, held her close
and put it all to rest
what never had the chance to bloom
is well and truly dead.

Happy 50th!

So, yesterday was my uncle Peter's 50th birthday :) (Congrats!).. I wasn't feeling too good, what with me still not feeling 100% and stumping my small toe just before the party (now that FUCKING hurt!) Anyways, there was NO WAY in hell.. I was going to miss my godfather's special day, no matter how bad i was feeling.

The party was fun, even though i couldn't eat any cake.. :( lol Damn stomach!
Anyways, just wanted to make it known how much i admire him. He's been through so much and still stayed strong. I'm super proud to call him my godfather. He's the definition of AWESOME. X

Ramblings of a Mia

As some of you may know, i've been feeling slightly under the weather for the past 3 days or so..

Well today, i missed my science essay deadline (Great start to the course), and reluctantly went to the doctors (mum pretty much summoned me..) I had to do hand in a urine sample and thus discovered i had a virus in my stomach :( Great stuff! Actually, it kills, and the whole 'dieting' thing has back fired as I haven't been able to eat anything and feel like shit for it. How very ironic >:(

However, on the bright side, i'm not diabetic or anemic which is releiving as i had my doubts..

That is all the randomness for today.
I shall keep you updated, if you're actually interested, that is..
Meh, who am i kidding.. this is my blog and i shall do as i please! lol.

& as Adam says, 'Toodle pip!' :P

P.s Hope you had a good birthday, Simba :) x

Prank phone call

Fucking Hillarious. 'Shouldn't have fucked me so hard..' LOL. I love Jack Black!

Click here:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mBb1i2buEGY&feature=related

Also another one. For those of you who are wondering.. yes, myself and Hus got a tad bored. XD

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yy08FHoPbNk

Something to make you smile! :)

Thoughts and feelings about teaching

Bonjour people!

I've been buried in various peices of coursework all afternoon/evening, and managed to miss out on a small social gathering because of this..Yay, go me! >:( Anyways, negativeness aside. Something positive has come of this evening - a short essay i wrote for Engligh. I figured i'd put it on here for ya'll to read as it doubles up as a post. Enjoy and goodnight :)


From the time I’ve spent in Barnet College so far, my initial thoughts and feelings are all very positive. My new class is varied where age and experience is concerned, and everyone seems to be friendly and enthusiastic about learning. I’m extremely excited about embarking on the journey of becoming a primary school teacher.

Through everything and all the uncertain thoughts I’ve had in the past, teaching always remained a definitive ambition in my life. Throughout school I wasn’t exactly a model student or role model of any kind, however I did enjoy learning and I grew to appreciate my teachers and their determination in helping the adults of tomorrow succeed. Having spent an additional three years in education studying for a sports and leisure course and a graphic design course after secondary school, I started to doubt myself and came to the realisation that I was delaying my progress in getting to where I wanted to be – career wise.

The time came for me to finally make a decision and stick to it. As you can imagine, with being a Libra, decision making tends to be something I’m not necessarily great at. The world is my oyster, but I don’t want everything which is contained within. All I know is that one thing is for sure, I want to teach. It was a start, but left me with yet another predicament. Would I become a physical education teacher, an art teacher, graphic design teacher, an English teacher or possibly even a primary school teacher? So many choices, yet only the latter would allow me to teach multiple subjects to younger children. Primary school teaching appealed to me in the way that I know I’ll be able to give the lower years a head start in life and the opportunity for them to learn things that I’ve been taught, and which will be beneficial at some point in their lives.

I’ve had experience with teaching/coaching children and feel that the personal reward you get from seeing someone achieve and progress is one which is priceless. I also feel that being able to put forward my own style of teaching and implementing my personality is an exciting concept.
I’ve always believed learning should be fun and interesting, not just dreary hand-outs and black and white text books. I think children should be given the opportunity to get involved with the subject that they’re learning and interact by playing educational games and things alike. Basically, things which will encourage children to learn instead of seeing it as something negative.
Overall, I’m feeling extremely positive and determined to pass this course with flying colours. I’m prepared and ready to face any challenges that may arise along the way. I’ve even started to somewhat compromise on my social life in order to keep on track of coursework, but this doesn’t bother me as in the slightest, as I know the end result will compensate for any stress or lack of social interaction I may experience throughout the duration of this new adventure.

One for the girls

Thought of the day:

Don't you find that men that initially come across as 'gentlemen' end up being complete jerks, and the one's which give off a bad impression at the beggining tend to suprise you with turning out to be the true gentlemen?

Obviously this is a biased thought, but this theory just keeps proving me right, every time.

Hope everyone out there is all good, and i shall write you soon. :)

x

Friends & 'thank you' notes

Alright, i know what you're thinking.. I never updated yesterday :O Shock horror!

Tremendous appologies for that, dearies. I would make some lame excuse, but for now i'll just be honest and say i got in late after a night out with the gang, and as a result was too tired to blog! :) Some dedicated writer i am, eh? :P For sureeee!

Well, It's a Saturday evening so I shant keep you long. I'm sure you've got lots of things to get on with.. Don't want to be reading all this random nonsense. Agree? Thought so. Mean people :P

Actually, all i wanted to do was make it known how awesome my friends are. Blah, blah, blah, you've heard it all before - i know. But i have to say, with everyone dispersing into different directions in life and embarking on different journeys, it makes every moment you spend with those people that touch more special. Love y'all XD


On that note, i'd like to take the opportunity to say how chuffed i was when i received a message on Facebook from the lovely 'ReoRae'. Some of you may know of the talented singer, and for those who don't, well you're missing out!

She's an acoustic singer/songwriter with a unique voice. I've been listening to her songs for just under a few years now on Youtube. Kudos to her for picking good songs to cover, also!

I'd reccomend you check out her channel on Youtube. All 'ReoRae's songs are on there. Some are originals, others covers - In my opinion, all of them are awesome :)

Here's the link to the Youtube channel: http://www.youtube.com/user/ReoRae?ob=1

Oh, and below is the message she kindly sent me :)

The evening after the morning before..

Okay, so the previous post was very pensive, to say the least.. But im beggining to feel more conclusive about everything now :)

I had college today as usual, three hours of english which included a debate about the postive and negative segments that make up the education system. Interested? I actually was, until the most irritating and extremely annoying woman i have ever met kept objecting to every point made in a rude manner, adding her own personal experiences into the equation. Not just the odd time, but all the friggin' time! No one else in the class could get a word in edgeways, or at all for that matter. She was really getting on my wick, and noticeably on everyone else's as the whole class began to pick up on her constant whining. You'd think a woman of about 36 years of age would be capable of keeping quiet now and again. But oh no, not miss 'know it all'. Some people just don't get a hint do they?

Apart from mega bitch (and the depressed jobsworth sprite that lives in the women's toilets) everyone I've met seems pretty awesome. However, i'm getting slightly concerned at my english teacher's use of the word 'For sure!'. No really, she's exhausted the word, badly.. and it's only the 5th day into college!

Well my lovelies, I'm off to bed.. Goodnight for now :)
I'll write you tommorow, Fo' Sho'! :P
x

The morning after..

It's my day off college today. Meant to be a relaxing 'study day', but oh how wrong that timetable was.. I Woke up feeling like total crap.. My morning goes a little something like this:

-Walked like a zombie downstairs
-Unenthusiasticly took 2 paracetamol tablets
-Sat on the cold sofa downstairs in my pyjamas
-Turned on the Vaio laptop
-Signed into this 'Blogger' blog

I was originally going to write this post at the end of the day, but decided there's no time like the present to air out some frustation..

It's the first time in ages i've felt like completely blocking the world and its mother out. For those who know me well will know i'm quite strong when it comes to dealing with things - especially relationship matters. People in the past have asked how i manage it. However, it's got to the point where i just feel like giving up. I'm either getting hurt and feeling pressurised or in a relationship with someone special, but pushing them far enough away so that they don't get too close. An evidently successful defense mechanism. But where does it all end?

One of my best friends once said to me; 'If you don't let anyone in, put your heart on the line and learn to trust, you'll never experience anything real'. That was sent in an e-mail to me about 3 years ago after some trouble i was having with an ex. She was right, but we all know it gets more difficult after each unsuccessful relationship and all the other shit that happens along the way. Me and the best friend i just mentioned can relate majorly to this type of situation as we've been through exactly the same things (Quite literally..) so it's calming talking to someone who's going through the same situations.

However, at the moment i don't want to talk, but at the same time i do.. I'm contradicting myself, yet again. I don't want there to be tension and akwardness, but there is, it's expected. I can never say what i want to say without going round the houses trying to make everything sound better than it is. Have you noticed? I want to know i have friends there to listen but im still not able to tell them everything as im trying to maintain my 'tough cookie' reputation. Well sometimes i'm not, i'm only human. I'm being honest, but have managed to do it again right now. Touching on the subject but not delving below the surface. Can you tell? Of course you can. I mean, im typing to a friggin' blog post and i still can't say everything i want to say, how lame is that?
I'd like to end this post with a loud ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!
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Much better :)

Faffing around..

It's all well and good owning a blog, but i need to spruce it up a bit, y'know, make it look funky and all that jazz.
After all, a blog should reflect the person writing it :P

(I'm not really that arrogant.. or 'dutty' on that note. Let's just clear that up, yes? Good.
I can tell we're going to get along just fine. ;)

Opening post.. Ohh the excitement!

So, you're probably wondering why i've decided to create a blog now? Why not earlier, later?
Well, my ways of dealing with things tend to be through writing my own songwords, poems and other things alike. However, after talking to a friend, decided i would try my hand at 'blogging'. No rules, no wrong or right, and most importantly of all - No expectations.. Just me. So here goes :) Will be updating regularly, so make sure you get your daily dose of Mia!

















P.s If you're out there and reading, don't be shy, let me know by leaving comments :)
Adios!
xox