Musings

I don't get how someone can be apparently upset that they don't have good friendships, but when some really great opportunities to have caring friends come along, and after everything that has happened, it gets chucked back at them. Now this has not only hurt me because of the way it's been dealt with, but also because I thought there was trust there. I was under the impression this person was genuine. I didn't think such a sensitive person could turn out to be so harsh.. I usually have a good judge of character. But hey, people make mistakes.

When you try and be there for someone, try and make the effort to talk and be honest, and they talk to you like you're crap and acting 'childish' what else is there to do? Can't believe i've been made out to be such a bad person. I'm just really shocked to be honest.. and even more hurt that no effort has been made whatsoever on their side. I can't keep feeling like this, and my friends have been great to me and told me to just forget things and not think about it, but it's hard because of how everything happened. Not that easy to just drop, although I wish I could like they clearly have. I'm not used to feeling this vulnerable, I just can't deal with it. I guess i'm still hoping this person will prove me wrong and we can talk, but I won't hold my breath.

When all those thousands of people find their way and don't need your help anymore, you're going to realise there's something real missing, and by the time you do, they'll be far gone.

Anyway, as well as this all going on. A stupid idiot and coward ex of mine has come crawling out of the woodwork, talking to me like he's been there for me all this time and suddenly wants to be back in my life like nothing's happened. It's been a long time, a million things have happened since, and I just don't care anymore. I feel numb. Nothing at all. If they dissapeared I wouldn't know the difference. So FUCK OFF. Thanks.

On a brighter note, lately have become closer with a few of my friends who I previously held a bit of a shield up with, and feel as if I don't have to walk on egg shells anymore. Infact quite the opposite! I had a great time in Canterbury with Bex and Hannah, and i'm loving travelling around to different places, and in particular checking out different cathedrals. Just something special about them...

To Chris, I really hope you go after what you want, I know you are. Just don't let anyone bring you down yeah? I'm sure at one point we'll meet new people who are what they seem and not something different. Keep the hope. There's more to life.

To the friends that I haven't seen in ages, I'm still around and hope to see you all very soon, you all mean lots to me :)

Hope everyone is well. Thanks to all those who have been there. You mean the world. xxx

Yellow

My cover of the amazing song :]

Love singing it!

Yeah, yeah, yeah :P

Went to university today, just for one lecture - History. Loved it :)

I not only loved it because the tutor was so very animated and enthusiastic (unlike our geography lecturer, which i think is inscreasingly becoming one of those subjects i'm going to despise solely because of the tutor) but because he gave our class a very interesting activity to do which involved us putting together the dates, clues and other evidence of a case together to form the actual series of events (facts) rather than bits and pieces of evidence which got lost in translation and somewhat misinterpreted.

I had pre-judgements before coming to university, as a good handful of friends who are there, or have just graduated seemed quite unenthusiastic about it. Either I'm just extremely lucky i'm on a fantastic course, or they're not in the subject area they should be (my best friend's situation).

I go in every day expecting to be the learner, which obviously I am, but at the same time I'm learning how to be a teacher. When we go into lectures/classes the tutor doesn't tell us what to do, they simply just give us tips on how to teach each of the subjects we have in the national curriculum. First semester: Maths, English, Science, Art, History & Geography. I've got lots of notes and good ideas to do with a class already for each of these subjects so when I go into a class by the end of year 3 I should be more than prepared for teaching properly.

I'm absolutely loving university life, have made great friends, met lots of new people and have become a lot more independent with not only my own responsibilities, but also about how I am. Having to sing nursery rhymes in the first few days in front of an audience, hymns in a spiritualist church and with putting up videos on YouTube whenever I feel like it, I can safely say my comfort zone is steadily expanding, with my inhibitions soon to be out the window!

I feel myself, I'm more than happy here like this :D

In history today we were talking about keeping diaries/journals, and so I put my hand up to contribute my experience in this, and managed to raise a few eyebrows when I mentioned my online blog and how i'd hit just over 100 posts, but that was totally fine. I don't actually care what people think about that (if it's something bad), and i'm feeling a lot like this about many other people/situations. Everyone has their own lives, what they like doing and what they don't. It makes you who you are. We should all embrace it, or move on. Simple. As a teacher i'm going to have to deal with criticism all the time! May as well be honest and laugh with it ;)

Positive thinking and enthusiasm seems to go a long way! I got the job at MoDA museum to work in the art rooms being an art leader and organising/helping children create things :) Can't wait to start training, it's basically play time for me with a very good hourly wage :D I initially thought it was going to be more volunteering based (which I also didn't mind) but it's actually not. Bonus! :D

Below is one of their exhibitions: Japantastic

& my video of the day:

The latest

G'evening people, your Mia here :D

@ the Freshers' fair I managed to acquire many a wall calender and pocket diary along with; condom dispenser, mints + mint dispenser, a frisbee, dvd on behaviour management (will be needing that!), lip balm, pens, keyrings and bags plus more random shabizzle. I also put my name down to receive information about becoming a scout leader (looks like they have a lot of fun!) and signed up for both the hockey and womens' football team. I've missed playing sport! :(

Some girls tried to convince me to sign up for netball, but I told them I found it too restrictive xD

So yeah, hoping to get back into the swing of the whole fitness thing.. back at the gym on Monday! :D I've made myself a routine aswell, so will be trying to stick to it this time!

This is where the two years of doing sport and fitness at college comes in handy :P

Uni is going well at the moment as you may have guessed. Did an English exam the other day. Everyone seemed to have been slightly worried about it, but personally, I love them :D

Strange I know! O_O

I'm in the uni mood and have stuck lots of planners on my walls and timetables along with all the photos of friends and it's really looking like a uni student's room now, walls were too bare before! :)

Aswell as all the random activities and social stuff planned, I'm really looking forward to seeing Kelly Clarkson at Wembley with Melissa, I know it will be brilliant! Oh, and sidenote - I'm getting a new phone tommorow, so you'll all be able to contact me and visa versa without being replied to with 9's from my possessed phone :D Woop! However, as I'm studying to be a teacher the lecturers are encouraging us to carry a diary with us which I think makes sense, so I will be carrying around my filofax with me aswell as my phone, although I seem to be used to organising everything and saving reminders etc. electronically.

Well that's enough from me for now.. I'm off to sleep! :)

Here's my chosen photo of the day:

This is one of the cathedrals in Bath, Avon. Will be visiting there in November. Definitely going to check this place out. I'm always in awe of cathedrals like this, also like the Coventry cathedral. Simply amazing..

100th blog post anniversary!!!

I think this blog deserves a big clap! xD

This is my 100th post from Sept 08 - Sept 09

From all the teen angst in the beggining it's been strange and quite a journey looking back on everything. I can't believe how much I've developed and changed as a person, but I guess that's called growing up, and with more life experience usually comes more wisdom :)

I'm so happy. I'm on the right path. I'm happy with myself and where I'm going. I have more 'get up and go', I'm travelling more, meeting more new people and have suddenly got this burst of energy and confidence. I can safely say things are falling into place. I never expected things to be going so well. I'm doing a teaching degree, having so much fun and getting to where I want to be at the same time. I have no worries about people anymore, I've accepted people move on just as I have and I wish everyone the best of luck with whatever they choose to do in life :) I have the most brilliant friends in the world, the nuttiest family and lots of ambitions. No one's going to bring me down ;)

Just applied for a job within the MoDA museum which consists of being an Art and Design workshop leader. I got really excited when I heard about the post because if you know me, you'll know I absolutely adore art and want to specialise in it (aswell as p.e) when I'm fully qualified so this will be a great opportunity and good experience as part of my training. Fingers crossed I get it! I'm optimistic :D

Today I went to the museum with my new class (it's in another uni campus linked with us) we played more group games to get to know eachother better, sang nursery rhymes to the class in groups and did the actions (well funny!), looked around the museum and then made a big dragon in our group of 4 out of bamboo sticks which we had to work with to get them to be circles, make the structure then covered it in paper mache and decorated with sugar paper. It was pretty impressive as we only had under an hour!

So yeah, as you can tell i'm having the time of my life, I get to relate everything back to my childhood (which I loved) and basically put myself in a child's shoes again, but also be more mature as I'm going into teaching. I have to watch my language (which isn't a problem anyway), had to make a more professional email address and be good at remembering names, which again isn't a problem for me. I've gone up to so many random people and just asked for their names :D Everyone's brilliant!

I'm doing a degree, been driving for over 3 years now, have brilliant friends, a steady direction in life, a great social life and (i hate to admit this) an amazing family.. I don't think I could ask for anymore. Everything is falling into place and i'm on a constant high, I'm buzzing! & I realise even from this post it seems i've had a few too many red bulls! It's great :D

I'll leave you with a song I'm addicted to atm to conclude! :)

University Start

Well, well..

What can I say? I am having a blast!
Today was my first day at uni, already met some brilliant people and it's only intro week :D

The majority of the people on the teaching course are girls, with the exception of about 5 guys. Everyone seems pretty down to earth and fun, basically my kind of people :) Already planned to go to lots of freshers stuff and meet as many more new people as possible!

The head of department gave a really good speech about the course and the outcomes and it's left me feeling really positive. One thing that stuck is her telling us to make ourselves familiar with places in London as one day when we're teachers we could be the ones that introduce

children to their first view of say, modern art in a gallery. I would actually love that :)

If you know me you'll know i've been on such a high the past month, i've found myself being much more confident in my direction in life and everything else. I know this is my path and I couldn't be happier! I plan to pass with a first class degree as they call it, but also party as much as possible and experience new things :P Happy times :)

I was for a while thinking about something and it was confusing for a bit, but now that my mind's occupied and i'm busy with new adventures, it doesn't seem like anything anymore because i'm happy as it is and i'm going with the flow. I'm young and free and i don't need to be worried. Life's too short! Whatever's meant to be will be, in the meantime i'm being realistic until i'm proven otherwise :)

Hope everyone is good, I'm going to try and get some sleep tonight as I have to be up for a nature trail in the woods at uni to 'familiarise' :D Although i'm so full of energy it's going to be tough. I really need to channel it into something constructive! :P

Above is the mansion house, one of my favourite parts of the uni.. so much more to the uni than meets the eye. Has an interesting feel about it, very historic :)

Honesty is the best policy

If this is true why do so many of us feel the need to lie and pretend to save face or avoid what's really going on? Fear? Hmm.. But t'is true, being honest and open is so much better than not saying anything at all, even if you do make yourself look like an idiot for it. xD No worries from now on :)

Coventry Adventure!

Goo' Evening :)

This is going to be a long one, hope you're comfortable :) It goes a bit like this..

Originally Miss Liah was meant to come down to London for the weekend, however circumstances changed and we were invited up to her flat in Coventry instead. Me and Chris said we'd see what we were going to do, so on Saturday after I finished work I went straight to Chris's place with my packed bag. We then went into central London and booked a coach (very comfortable one with leather seats) to Coventry. On the coach we sang random songs (hey there delilah, standing in the way of control etc.) haha :) and we had some good chats too about how we both love travelling.

So, two hours later - 11pm, yes, took us 6 hours in total to get to Coventry because of the lack of planning :D We met Liah at the coach Station in Coventry.

Initial

impressions were good! So much more space in Coventry compared to London, everyone just seems to be more spaced out.

From then we went back to Liah's flat, luckily there was no one there apart from us so that was a bonus. We sat down, chatted and chilled for a bit, drunk and stayed up 'till about 3am, well 4 after :P

Woke up the next day, went to see the Cathedral which is literally a five minute walk from Liah's accomodation.. and all I can say is WOW. On the outside was amazing

, and when we went inside I think I can safely say we were all in awe of the place.. The amount of amazing architecture and design in there is something brilliant, you really should go visit it if you haven't already.

After this Liah introduced me and Chris to her local Spiritual church. Chris and Liah are already practicing mediumship, but for me it was all a bit daunting, well in the beggining. We sang some hymns (very traditional service) and prayers along with a minute of silence. After this 2 mediums, one woman and one man, stood on the podium and gave out readings. Suprisingly Chris's grandmother came through, with an accurate description of everything which was nice as it was our first time in

the church. Me and Liah were both pleased about this :) Straight after the man picked up on my grandad and described things that he couldn't possibly know. One being the fact that my grandad was burried with a pocket watch in his shirt, and described it exactly. This brought back a lot of memories for both me and Chris, but made us feel somewhat peaceful after hearing that we had someone there for us. Such a great experience and will definitely be practicing mediumship now that Chris and Liah have explained the concept and i've seen for myself what it involves. I've always believed in spirit, but just never really considered anything like this before yesterday.

The next day we went into the town centre (witnessed parents queing up with their children for a cute baby competition), me and Liah got checked out by fr

eaky people in KFC and Chris got checked out by some (and i quote) pre-teen girl. We went back to the flat after hitting the mall (sounds so American xD) and then went to a spiritual circle that Liah belongs to - The same church we were at the day before. I can safely say we were the youngest in there, everyone was over 35 for sure, the majority looked in their 50's +. We did some meditation, materialisation and then went around the circle describing

what we saw. A lot of people didn't get much, but me, Chris and Liah managed t

o give descriptions out which someone took. I expected Chris and Liah to do well at this, but not me.. but suprisingly I saw quite clear images which was nice. According to the guys I now have a spirit guide :)

After that relaxing evening, back to the flat where we had champagne and strawberries, all of us got drunk (and naughty) played a few games out of Liah's naughty book and the sexy dice xD Involving neck kissing, body sucking and lip teasing amongst many others. That was another fun night and the last of 3 up in Coventry for now.

..(missing out naughty parts here)

Will definitely be going back. Was just a really nice place to be, and the cathedral tipped the scales :D The 3 of us took some time out to sit and think in the church, was just really relaxing and I haven't felt so peaceful in a long time..

The nights were always fun! Chris complaining about the noise all the time without us girls

realising (sorry! :D) and here I am, sitting with a hickie or two, but laughing because I know Liah's are worse, hehe :P According to Mr Dez - Liah's good friend and workmate anyways, who I must say seemed like an awesome guy, very down to earth! We all met in Liah's car on the way to the condom factory, what a story! Coventry University are definitely the best shag promoters! Haha, I mean.. over 3300 condoms for free? Jammy!

So, i'll conclude by just saying I've had the best time I've had in ages and realised a few things about myself whilst I was in Coventry and was nice to have peace and quiet. We all learnt something. I guess we're just an awesome trio :D I didn't manage to get any photos due to lack of camera, but the ones in this post are what we saw, enjoy :)

Why?

Why does everything fuck up?

I feel in a strange mood today.. Happy but also confused and frustrated and I can't quite work out why.. All I know is that i've been craving cuddles! Haha.. How messed up is that? Finished watching Season 3 of Skins, It's amazing.. Definitely something I can relate to!

Sleep on it.

G'afternoon :)

Erm yeah, about the last post.. Just one of those things really. I'm okay today, laughing about everything actually :) Enjoying summer still, more than ever to be honest. Start uni as a 'fresher' in a few weeks, aaah!

Apart from the hard work, i'm quite looking forward to everything else uni related xD Although work will be my priority (i'm being good) I intend to go to as many parties/get-togethers as possible :D Have some fun and meet new people :) They say uni is meant to be the best time of your life, and I intend to live up to that :D

I'm happy that recently I've built closer bonds with a lot of my friends by talking to them 1-1. It's amazing how much you can find out about someone by talking in private and develop better friendships. Communication is definitely the key.

I've also come to learn over time that for every thing that you're thinking of wanting/doing you're pretty sure that the other person you're around is thinking the same, chances are that you both want the same thing and to not wait, just take a risk. A bit abstract but interpret it as you will :)

Frustration

It's nearly 1am and the one time I actually want to get a moderately early night, I can't because I'm feeling down about something. It's actually pretty minor, but is still managing to hurt. The one time i'm trying so hard to be open and honest without being defensive, and it feels like it's not getting me anywhere in helping someone to trust me and not jump to conclusions. I'm actually trying really hard..

I don't know what's going on at the moment, it's all pretty crazy, but i just wish we were closer so we could talk properly instead of getting confused/frustrated over msn. Maybe it's too much to ask? Maybe I should be defensive again like before? I really don't want that. I didn't think I needed to be, hope i'm proved wrong :( I want things to be different/new. It's mad how certain people can mean so much..

Night all.

Thoughts

Good morning all :)

So, going to the travel agents today to book a holiday to Ibiza for next year with the girls (such a generic thing to do) but i'm going to be with amazing people and we're going to have lots of fun *thumbs up* :D There are certain things that will probably be interesting and new, but then again, it's next year, anything could happen by then, I'll just see how it goes.

Aside from this I've been trying to get to know someone, and it seems like time is flying. Everything has happened so quickly, and there's already petty arguments in the mix :P

I have to admit, it is funny :)

Last but not least is a little rant I have. Yep, that's right. It's a rant about a guy who seems to be becoming my best mate. (I've read your posts, I always do) Stop putting yourself down!

I just want you to know that i'm scared about letting people get close too, we both know what it's like when it comes to trusting people (which i think has probably drawn us closer lately).

You've been through a lot and deserve to be happy. I'll be seeing you soon :) P.s Don't be worried about not being a good friend, t'isn't even an issue. If you shout at me, I'll just shout back :D

Turn of fate!

Hey, good evening.. good week? Ha, I really have no idea what I'm writing tonight, but have had a strange urge to post something impulsive, so here goes..

This week/month has been very mental.. I can safely say there's not been a day without drama/new issues, but this is not your normal, annoying drama.. Just new revelations, experiences.. some more intense than others, but all unplanned and appreciated..

I've established who I am.. (finally) I was lost for a while, but now I feel as if I can be totally myself. Those of you who are close enough will know what/who contributed to me feeling like this. I can't say I knew this would happen all so quickly, but it has and it's been overwhelming, exciting, scary and new.. but I wouldn't have it any other way :)

There's lots to look forward to, and lots to be discovered. I've gone through probably every feeling possible in the past few days, and it's been full of ups and downs, but hey, what's life if you don't have to fight for anything? Well to be honest, it would bore me.

I just feel so lucky to know such amazing people, and for every friend I've lost, i've gained one up. My close circle of friends are BRILLIANT. I seriously couldn't have chosen better.. And by close friends I mean those who I tell everything to without feeling like I can't be myself.

Bring on the rest of the year, and the ones to follow. I'm ready to take on whatever life has to throw :D

:) Chase what you want in life.. Don't be scared to step out of your comfort zone, or else you'll never experience any new feelings :)

Updations

G'morning all!

So, i've been meaning to update and what better time than now? It's 5:30 am and I'm wide awake.

The first thing I wanted to blog was Sunday's antics, but my good friend Mr Chris got there before me, so just refer to his latest post @ http://sucklemons.blogspot.com/. It was

quite the experience :P Nice meeting you both!

Secondly, was my day today.

In the morning I used my tomtom for the first time to find a friend that lived literally 5 minutes away from my house which was pretty pathetic of me. I got introduced to anime movies, which I actually really like now. If you watch them you'll see how amazing the art work is, the soundtrack and general concepts of the stories. Magical stuff :)

Later this evening, met friends and left for central London at around 10pm to go to club Heaven in Charing Cross. I got chatted up by a guy on the train sitting could even get through the entrance. He went through his life story and then asked if I wanted to 'hook up' sometime, to which I replied I have a boyfriend (I don't), he then said that every girl uses that line and

even tried to make me break up with my imaginary boyfriend before he got off for his stop. The bloody cheek of it! Before he jumped off he asked for my name. I said it was Susan xD

We arrived in Leicester Square pretty early so went into Yates and ordered some shots (melon flavour is just strange..) got followed around by those club promoting dudes, and eventually found club Heaven. Security was tight! We had to line up, go through metal detectors, empty our bags (the woman threw away my pack of chewing gum!) and a full body search before we could even get through the entrance.

My best friend J and her girlfriend said that they would buy me and my other friend a shot for every girl we kissed in the club. So up for the challenge like ya do, we agreed. Unfortunately when we got inside it was a total sausage fest. However, the guy that complimented me on my eyes, and I quote 'You have beautiful eyes, like the eye of the tiger' was hillarious :D

There were like hardly any girls compared to the amount of guys there which sucked, especially as we had guys coming onto us all night, but like trying the whole dance behind thing and would not get the message.

We met a group of nice lads and were reunited with a guy from secondary school which was nice. Overall, a good time was had and I'd go again. Being dragged to GAY night next, should be interesting. Monday nights are called Popcorn and is free entrance with a student card which is pretty good. Drinks weren't too expensive either. If it sounds like your sort of thing, check out their site: http://www.heavennightclub-london.com/

Night bus home bickering with Shivy as usual. She's just so easy to wind up :) Then hung out in my car once we got back. Karaoke at 4:30am in the car courtesy of Shivz. Thanks for that! O_O

All in all an awesome night :D Looking forward to trying out some new clubs soon!

Have you got the X-Factor?

Turns out that the sore throat I was complaining about in the previous post turned out to be tonsillitis, great! It's been 6 days without being able to eat/talk properly. However, today I feel a lot better, got a feeling I should be fully recovered by the time the weekend comes (fingers crossed).

This Saturday gone, me and some friends from school met up and went to Hammersmith Appolo to see the X-Factor boot camp, so the last 50 people out of however many thousands that auditioned. I'd requested some tickets online earlier as I can never resist live music :D It was suprisingly good! Saw the judges up close, and saw some brilliant acts including a girl called Despina who was in our year at school, so it was nice to see someone representing :) The audience were all VERY supportive. I mean, people came on forgetting their words and some weren't that good, probably due to nerves and the audience still stood up, clapped and cheered them on which was nice to see.

Apart from the fact we were waiting in the rain for over 2 hours, and with me not feeling 100% and not being able to sing along, the evening was very enjoyable and I made friends with the guy that was sitting next to me. I admire everyone that had the guts to go up on stage and sing. Auditioning is one thing I have to do before I die, for definite. Just for the experience. Life's all about trying different/new things out of your comfort zone and letting go once in a while.

It was great to see the school lot again, missed you crazy people!

So yeah, that's all I have to report for today.. more soon :)

Larynx

Today I wake very frustrated as I have the sorest throat EVER. It seems to have gotten worse over the course of 3 days.

This is not only frustrating because it's uncomfortable, but because I have a whole list of songs I want to record and upload. Not only at home, but band practice which I haven't been to in yonks (it seems). Without vocals, there's nothing for me to work with! This makes Mia an unhappy bunny :(

So, here I am asking if anyone out there knows any quick and effective ways of making the soreness dissapear? Let me know! :)

In the meantime I'm going for a drive, get some fresh air. Bfn!

Regrets or experiences?

Okay so yesterday I did something I probably shouldn't have.. I'm strong enough to deal with what happens after but I know that they're most definitely not, well from what has been shown. I guess i'm more emotionally stronger than I used to be. A lot more.

Although saying that, the one thing that I want (apart from my teaching career, house and to travel around the world) is someone to share everything with, otherwise there's no point. Yeah there's personal gain, thinking you're all tough and independent because you're doing everything alone, but the day will come when you'll want someone to be by your side, know that they're there for you no matter what. To make it basic - Love.

The majority of us will know what that feels like, and personaly I don't think anything compares to that warm feeling. Even the feeling of lust, it's exciting but comforting at the same time.

Myself, I crave being close to others. I've said this recently to two of my close friends in a deep conversation we had. I respond more to touch than anything else. I like being close to people, I guess it's a comfort thing. Obviously I realise this isn't always a good thing as it can lead to the wrong sort of attention, when being close comes naturally to me.

I'm not looking, but hopefully the right guy for me will come along and take me for me, however much of a pain in the arse I may be. :D

New Age

It's funny how you can think you want something, convince yourself you're nothing without it, but one little moment or realisation can change it all..

Who would've thought a feeling so strong could be gone by answering a simple, yet personal question of which would've normally been taboo to ask? Never I.

I'm comfortable with who I am, and you should be too.

This isn't the end of a chapter, it's the start of a new story.

I'm not afraid to be open, say my views, never have been. What has always scared me is people getting too close for comfort, too personal. Now I'm not so scared. I have my moments, but that's because of trust issues. If I think I can trust you enough, I'll open up to you. If you're not there for me, but want to know the latest 'gossip' then you can forget it and buy HEAT magazine instead.

Although I've been really ill for a while with the flu, possible swine flu (doctor diagnosed me over the phone) not many people have asked how I am, which makes me feel a bit meh.. But being at home on my own since Tuesday has got me to thinking although I can't sleep at night because I'm shivering or boiling over, I'm happy. That may seem strange but I can't really complain. The friends that I do have mean lots to me and there are certain individuals who I never would've thought would be such good friends.. I don't need to worry about those who aren't. If the effort isn't being made on their side, then there isn't much more i'm prepared to do, I'm tired of fighting a losing game, so good luck to you.

I specifically wanted to mention my good friend Chris in this post as he's really made me realise a lot lately and we've had great times. Out of everyone, even though we sometimes disagree on things, you're my favourite guy to talk to. (You're probably reading this and being modest) =]

Hopefully I'll be back to 100% health so I can see you all soon (well those that matter) Look after yourselves!

Hillarious!

A little something I came across on youtube.

Made me laugh :D:D

Whoa Whoa Whoa!

It's been too long! Hewo :)

So i find myself home alone, this is certainly a rare (and peaceful occasion). Lots have things have been happening lately, lots of new concepts and people i've met :) College is practically finished, with the exception of a few essays, and uni begins in September!

It's just a short post as i felt guilty for not updating, it's just i've been mega busy y'see. Not too busy for music of course though! A few days ago i met the lead guitarist (Howard) from a professional band called 'The Beta Rays' through a friend, and have got to know him a bit, and i must say he is a great guy. I had the privilege of meeting the Beta Rays and saw them play at '93 Feet East' in London on Tuesday. I must say, every one of the band was really nice, and it was awesome hanging out backstage and for the sound check with them :)

Check out one of their song, about a slut. XD

They're even better live!

(Howard is the tall one in red)

If you're interested in seeing them play, dates are up on their pages, or just let me know.

You can also hit them up on myspace and facebook.

Oh, and for those of you that are feeling down..

If you think life is bad now, how would you like to be an egg? You only get laid once. You get eaten once. It takes 4 minutes to get hard, only 2 minutes to get soft. You share your box with 11 other guys, but worst of all, the only chick that ever sat on your face was your mom! So cheer up, your life isnt that bad. XD

Band Camp :D

Yoyoyo!

Righteo, it's a very happy post for all you chirpy people out there :D

A few days back i met the guitarist of our current band ('Stigma' / 'Stig-Ma', for now), Simon. Not only is he 6 foot something! (mega tall and scary) he's also brilliant on guitar, which is an awesome addition :) Although he won't let just anyone *touch* his guitar, you have to be a guitar player, and i don't mean GH. Also, he drags me off the drums :( :)

We currently practice in Si's garage, he has all the equipment we need really, drumkit, guitars, mic stand, electricity ports, lots of speakers and amps! I spent £40 on a really good microphone the other day, and i must say i love it. We have set days where we practice, and discuss any issues. A few days back was quite a step for me as it was the first time i'd sung infront of anyone before, let alone two complete strangers. I was a tad anxious at first but in no time i felt comfortable. The second session, which was yesterday, we agreed on a starting setlist of songs we were going to be practicing. 

The first song which we spent about 4/5 hours playing was 'Seven Nation Army' - The White Stripes. I'd always liked this song, but apart from headbanging to the drums and dancing to the riff, i never really paid attention to the lyrics, so was a bit apprehensive at first, especially as the lead is a bloke, but our drummer and guitarist picked the song up in no time at all, and i was left to sing the song in my own own style, and it seemed to be alright for a first attempt. It's fun practicing it! Just have to learn the other 3 songs on our setlist.

Next challenge is to get it to get to the stage where we're happy, and perform them in front of a mini crowd :D I'm having fun and glad things are progressing. All these years joking with friends about making a band etc. and now it's finally happening. Oh and btw, i couldn't care less about the critisisms, i'm enjoying myself, so feck off :D Here we come Giggin' Enfield XD

I'll keep ya's updated!

Memories & Newage

Just a bit of procrastination to keep me sane!

Just logged into my BEBO account, Hadn't been on it for since FOREVER!

Weird when you look back on things..

Another random mention to this band that were on Jools Holland the other night. They're funky, love the lead singers voice and energy, and of course the awesome bass riff :D Check 'em out:

Last post continued.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X8OUNoAoAg8

Okay, so on a chirpy note today, i'm getting used to my video being up on youtube. 

I've even decided to post some more covers and eventually some originals. 

It's took time to get the confidence to put a video up for the world to see, but i did it. Next steps are getting more confident for other adventures i've had in mind for years. For as long as i can remember i've wanted to sing in a band, but never had the confidence/self belief that i could be good enough. It's all a turning point now though as i'm beggining to come out of my shell a little and express myself a bit more without caring what other people think.

I've got  afew links, so we'll see where it takes me. At the moment just working on confidence issues, although saying that, all the positive comments i've recieved so far have really made a difference, so thanks :) 

& no, Chris and Kay.. I refuse to sing the muppets or Kylie Minogue!! XD Luff ya's really :D

It's dare

It's been a long, long day. English was actually so boring i actually asked to leave an hour before the end. Ended on a funny note though after being dared to post a video on youtube, which i stuck to my promise of doing and got some random comments too XD

I got over the problem i had, quicker than i thought i would. I'm happy and i feel free. Screw whoever has an issue with that! :D

Might post the link soon!
Which actually ties in with something coincidental and irrelevant. :)

Could you tell it to my face, or have i been a waste?

Well what would you know?

I've been screwed over, yet again by someone i thought i could trust.

This sly bombshell was dropped on me this evening when i thought things were going okay. Nope, couldn't even say it to my face. Wrote me in a text which was so fucking hurtful he may aswell have ripped my heart out whilst he was typing it to me.

Hope you're happy now, you fucking coward.

Road trip.

Wow! Easter break has finally hit :D
Hope everyone is well.

I'm happy because i got into Hertfordshire and Middlesex University, my two choices. Taking into consideration i had to go through so much to get a place, and was up against roughly 70 potential teachers that day, and god knows how many applied in total - I can say i'm fairly proud of myself :)

Having a difficult time at home with a certain issue at the moment, but you'll never know what it is, because to be honest it's something i can't stand to say the least. If you know me, you know you'll rarely hear of my problems, but trust me i do have them.. Just pretty strong with dealing with them and not airing them out. Soon i'll be out of this place and this will all just be a figment of my imagination, im sure ;)

I'm focused, determined.. and nothing's gonna drag me down. Don't try to make me feel guilty, or remind me of the past. It means nothing, because it isn't my future. You're not here now are you? Didn't think so.

There's a lot of people i miss talking to, and i took it to heart when i didn't get contacted, but it doesn't bother me now because everything happens for a reason. There's a reason why it's the past and not the future. When you ever need to talk, or hang out.. I'll be here :)
Justy, Sam, Shivy - my girlies :D

Decided to ditch town for a bit. I leave for Norfolk tommorow by car, it's gonna be an adventure as i don't know where the fuck the place is! But Tomtom will guide me :D

My head is clear and my heart is open. I don't have a boyfriend. I won't wait. I've been there and done that. Don't play games. If you want me fight for it, otherwise i'll never know..& nothing will change. Be brave. Make a move. Be a man.

If you need me i'll have my mobile. You know the score.
I'll leave you with this song that reflects my mood.
See you all soon.

xox

Gonna miss my Access girlies!

My mum looking after my best (assets) interests XD
Gonna miss my teaching family :(

Dog, cat and a rat

Hey all,

Another day of coursework, although not feeling as stressed as i mentioned in the previous post as i handed in the majority of my work yesterday. So, as i sit here watching 'One tree hill' and working, a friend sends me this.




Too amazing to ignore, so i thought i'd share it :) Cute or what?

Piled under

I am absolutely inundated with work, very stressed and annoyed >:(

If only all my work could be as colourful and inviting as the powerpoint i'm currently creating, then i might be more willing!

Have to present this tommorow (fun part) and hand in shit loads of assignments. Grr!

Long night for me :(

Too many fish to keep up with!

I think it's about time i deleted my POF account.. XD

Sunshine

Hey all,

It's been a while since my last post.. I deliberately left a space so that i could tear away from all the things i tended to dwell on. It's worked :) I can truly say time is one of the best healers.

Things seem to be falling into place for me these past months.

I've finally 'found myself' and have realised that most things can be achieved where there's hope and determination. I had doubts about my future career, but since starting my 3rd school placement it confirmed it's deffinitely what i want to do. Also, doubts about my personal life, but all of them have dissapeared. The confident, care-free (to an extent) Mia is back!
The girl that was a cheeky, rebellious student is becoming a teacher so you better believe it ;)

I managed to secure a place at my university of choice after an intense 6 hour 'interview' last Monday, although i'd say it was more of an activity day really. They like to grill us potential teachers..
When i got there, it went like this:

- Maths exam
- English essay on SATS
- Paired listening and speaking
- Individual presentation on 'your experiences' in front of everyone (had 3 minutes to plan and write it on acetate)
- Group discussion. Again, on SATS and our stance on them. *Yawn*

We were told it would take at least 2 weeks to hear back, but i heard within 3 days that i got a place, so as you can imagine i was really happy. I was also slightly bewildered as some of the 'more able' women in our class got rejected.

I had good vibes about the place whilst i was there and clearly the positivity carried through :) Everyone seemed pretty nervous as you'd expect, but i felt right at home XD
I've never had a problem with giving presentations, infact i enjoy them :)

As well as academically, i'm also having a better time at work. Having sports arranged and socialising more with my colleagues, scoring a goal against my boss and seeing my line manager being knocked out on the pitch made for quite an eventful day :D

Also, I love the girls who are on my teaching course at the moment, they're all so genuine and i couldn't ask for a better bunch of people to study with. Although i seemed to have somehow been branded as the 'boob girl' and rebel of the class, t'is all good. They help me to enjoy learning, so i'm prepared to let it slide ;)

I have no regrets in life and still go with the saying 'What's meant be will be'.
For those who don't have time, i hope you're having a good life!
For everyone else, thanks for being there :)


Life's sweet. Live it up.

Cheesy chat up lines that made me XD

1. Your name must be Daisy, because I have the incredible urge to plant you right here! XD
2, Your body's name must be Visa, because it's everywhere I want to be.
3, I may not be Fred Flintstone, but I bet I can make your bed rock.
4, Wanna play house? You be the front door and I'll bang you all night long.
5, If you're going to regret this in the morning, we can sleep until the afternoon - what a great idea?! XD
6, If you were a car, I would wax you and ride you all over town.
7, You must be Jamaican, because Jamaican me crazy.
8, Want to play conductor? You be the engineer and I'll go choo choo.
9, Hi, my name is Pogo, want to jump on my stick?
10, This isnt a beer belly, its just a fuel tank for a love machine
11. Help the homeless.Take me home with you.
12. Hey baby wanna play house you can be the door and i'll slam you.
13. How you like your eggs cooked? i want to know how to make them for the morning.
14. Do you ever give head to strangers? No. Well let me introduce myself
15. Are they lumber jack pants your wearing? 'Cos they're giving me wood
16. How do you like your eggs in the morning, fertilized?
17. Sit on my face and let me get to nose you better
18. I suffer from amnesia do i come here often?
19. Are you free tonight? Or will it cost me?
20. I'm going to have sex with you so you might aswell be there

When you walk my way hope it gives you hell, hope it gives you hell!

Hell Yeah! :D

Randomisity

Aloha again,

Just been to the gym. They've got this new machine in, I only used it for half an hour as i started to feel sick. It's great though - Does everything... Kitkats, Mars bars, Snickers, crisps.. The whole lot! XD

Weird dream the other day. Part of it was waking up, looking in the mirror and seeing a tattoo of Pocahontas in a kayak and sunset on my thigh, then later discovering it was done whilst i was asleep. How strange.. But then again i've always been a bit a bit of a dreamer!

Advert :D

Y'allo :)

As i mentioned in one of my recent posts i joined Match.com. I still continue to recieve emails

(of which i can't actually open). So, in a bid to find a good (and free) site, i joined one which i remembered a few of my friends joined and are still with the guys they met from there.

I was a bit skeptical about it all, but continued to be open and give it a shot. And my was i suprised. Within an hour i received many emails (which i could access) and the majority were from intellegent men that didn't type like gangstas. Result! (Y)

I can also check my mail from my mobile (mega geek i know) and check out people's photos etc. Another thing that's good about the site is that you can do advanced searches and find people living in the area. Cuts to the chase.

I've met lots of nice, interesting guys. A lot of them are older, which i like anyway.

I've met a 23yr old guy who really stands out of the crowd. Literally - He's 6'3, cute, funny and can actually hold a good conversation :) We've been talking alot and texting eachother. We both want to meet up sometime in the near future. Oxford isn't too far to see Mr P, even if we end up as friends. As they say: 'Nothing ventured - nothing gained'.

Below is the profile of someone that messaged me the other day. XD

LAUGH.LIVE.LOVE.

Feeling really happy recently. Through the recent revelations i'm still happy and just want to be there for my friends. I don't know what's made me feel this way, but i'm feeling a lot more positive - back to my usual self! :D

At this precise moment in time i wanna have some fun, do something crazy, laugh 'till i cry - which i practically was earlier thinking back on things. Wouldn't change it for the world.
Seems like everyone around me is changing and begining to be more certain of themselves, including myself, and it's awesome.

Me and a good friend of mine have decided to go hot air balooning in the summer. I'm gonna be shit scared once we hit a significant height, but we're gonna do it and get photos! XD Ah!
So many things are going to be happening, gonna be awesome, hopefully lots of others will get involved :D

Anyway, enough about summer. Here and now i'm :D A few guys have really made me laugh these past few days, t'was badly needed, so thank you! :P

Also, going to run the race for life in June with a few friends, so would be grateful if you could sponser me! :)
All funds go towards cancer research, it's something i really feel the need and want to get involved with for personal reasons.

Rhino the hamster = LEGEND

As Chris briefly mentioned on his blog (see right of this page) there was a hamster called Rhino in Bolt 3D that made the film, he was hillarious (either that or we're pretty sad?) LOL either way, we had fun!

Seems it's not only us that appreciate him, he has his own fan club XD
The original part in the movie. FULLY AWESOME!

Good (retro) times :)

Okay, cut out the last few posts, it meant nothing. it was just out of frustration and care, because if we didn't, we wouldn't bother having a go at eachother, as stubborn as we both are.

Yesterday i had a brilliant time, haven't laughed so much in ages!

Pretty eventful night, driving around trying to get Wifi around McDonalds, knocking for people, watching Bolt 3D, walking through shops with retro 3D glasses on, walking the dog and me nearly being dragged through a gravegard at night.. NOOO way. Thanks for an awesome time :) & i'm glad we sorted things. Life's too short eh, and in summer we are gonna rock it! :D

I'm happy.

Confused.com

I'm a bit like whoa.. what the hell? I really don't get it. But then again, if someone's gonna switch that easily, then what's the point in trying to understand?

Friends are not easy to come by. If you care too much, it's seen as weakness. If you're strong minded with an opinion, your cast aside because your seen as a threat. I've seen this happen many times, and all i can say is: Grow the fuck up.

Do i really have to be stoned off my face, or act like a drunken idiot to be in your 'friends catagory'. If so, then count me out. (Y)

That's all i have to say on the matter. Hope you'll come to your senses and not make me regret the previous posts more than i already am at this moment in time, but we'll see. I'm not expecting anything though.

Omfg

Curious case of benjamin. Two words. Go See. It is brilliant.. Can't actually believe how good it was, and of course the company ;)

A funny night. Got charged £10 for two bags of pick 'n' mix with literally one handful of sweets in each. We agreed to pay and learnt our lesson for the next time, and as revenge sat in the 'priority seating'. This backfired when near to the film beggining, all the lights were switched back on and the cinema dude came in and pointed us back to 'standard seating', which to be honest, i find pretty comfortable anyways, so i wasn't too bothered. Felt like a naughty school kid the way we got led away XD

If you're reading this, i had an awesome time, so thank you. :) Really cheered me up.

P.s How can everyone in the film be my mum? Huh, huh?! Cheek of it. :P

Night all!

Lullabies and dreams

I find myself in yet another situation..
All i have to say is, it takes two to tango.. and i'm sorry, but you knew how i felt :(

Here i am, getting more personal on this blog as i go along.. and to tell the truth, i'm finding it pretty strange..

Anyways, good thing. In the past few days there's a lot of things from my past i've come to terms with and managed to detach from my mind, and I couldn't feel better for it. Don't try tell me what to do, or say. Thanks (Y)

I'm considering learning to play my guitar in the summer, getting proper tutorial. It's something i've always wanted to do, but just never got around to. A brand new, unused Yamaha has been laying in my room for quite a while now, it would be a shame to just forget about it. I still laugh at how I broke the strings of my electric whilst attempting (and failing) to tune it, then took it back within minutes of purchasing it :D

Another random thing. The other day, i signed up to Match.com, out of pure curiousity and fun (like ya do) and made a profile. In no time at all i was getting winked at. 'Winking' is similar to Facebook's 'poking' system, a little note of interest.

Now, this is all well and good, but what happens when you receive mail? That i did, on numerous occassions, and still am. However, i can't check my mail. Pointless? Very much so. That is unless i decide that Match.com is the solution to all my problems and and start paying monthly! Which i can assure you will not be happening any time soon.
So, currently all that's occurring is boomerang winking. Shit much?
I did try and go back and just put my IM into my profile, but it wouldn't let me. XD

Check out this piano cover of 'Bella's lullaby' from the Twilight movie. Beautiful :)

My tribute to Twilight. This way I get to see the gorgeous Robert Pattinson all the time!

If you STILL haven't seen the film, i strongly reccomend you do so :D

Solace

Today, still the same thing as yesterday.. i'm finding a few things difficult to deal with.
I know we're close, and it's not just because we can be total idiots together, or laugh at pretty much anything. We have a connection, i think both of us are still a bit weary of admitting. We both see life from different angles than most people.. and are trying to find our way. In the mean time, yeah we've made mistakes but it's only just opened our eyes more and helped us to appreciate what's around us. We also like to feel like we make a difference to people, especially those close, 'cos well if we don't, what are we here for? Someone must care.

Am i such a bad person for missing a lot of things? It just feels such a shame to let go.. I don't want to. Looking back at the amount of amazing times, it's really overwhelming. It shaped a lot of who i am now, and others. Walking through London in the evening just in awe of everything.. Going to museums and getting in front of people's photos, just for the fun of it :) Y'know, there are so many things i wish we could still do, and i know we can.

If you're reading this, don't think i've forgotten all of that..
I care.



This is how i feel.

The weight, it must be light wherever you are..

It's been a long day.. Just literally been doing work all day, accompanied by music from Trespassers William. Truly amazing. You can see from the post below, how relaxing their music is.. it's kinda special. I'm finding solace in listening to it :)

A few assignments down, and a few more to go. Feeling a lot more positive today, although have been getting distracted a lot, i've not been bored. I believe only boring people get bored easily :P

Through eveything, i've figured out what i want.. I think it's just the feeling of being lonely, not physically being lonely, more mentally. So i guess i'm looking for someone to just come and take me away from everything.. Show me there is more than what i'm used to.

I'm going through something at the moment with a close friend which is taking me more time than i thought to adjust to. Old habits die hard.. and well, we've all been in the position where we feel confused and a bit lost, but deep down we know the decision we've made is the right one, and well, if it isn't you know not to make the same mistake next time. I'm happy with mine.
I'm one of those girls that has more guy friends than girls, and it's always been better for me. I don't want to lose any of you.

Another great song from TW.



I really can't stop listening.. I've loaded my iPod up with all their songs. Can really relate.

What do you do?

I'm happy, i have many friends and loads of people around me.. people wanting to be with me (i can't understand why) and yet i still feel so alone. Ever felt like that?

I guess it's like a realisation that i'm in this thing alone, pretty much. That i still haven't found what i'm looking for.
There are safe options out there, but it's not necessarily what i want, and i wish people would stop pushing me, because it won't make any difference.

There are certain things i can't get off my mind, and believe me - i've tried. I don't know why i can't, just seem to linger like fog, but man am i good at hiding it. But every now and again it'll creep up again at night, reminding me of the past. I wonder if they get it too? Probably not.

There are people who are quite willing to just walk in and walk out when it's convinient to them, and this does get to me sometimes, also people who will change and follow the crowd, but when you're alone be a completely different person. It doesn't figure..
Surely if someone means something to someone, they'll be around, stay with you and work out any problems and resume like normal. Too much to ask?

It seems there are many judgements being passed subconsiously, assuming that someone will always be around, when really they shouldn't be so sure. Lessons are learnt. People realise (real-lies) Some people just aren't compatible, you can't force it. I've learnt that one.

I can't wait for the summer, to escape with friends.. a change of scenery, even just for a while, 'cos at the moment feel like i'm stuck in a fish bowl, going around in circles, same faces, same places. We need it sometimes though, familiarity to feel comfortable, but also need to expand, grow as people.

Apart from everything, there has been a silver lining. I've met an amazing man recently on FB. He's lovely, and we talk about anything and everything. It's a shame he doesn't live closer :( But i've always enjoyed long journeys with music, so look forward to meeting him :) It's a good thing we're both as sarcastic as eachother!

Moving on and up!

Title explains all. Couldn't give a f*&k about certain things anymore. No more taking things personally, i.e not caring below the surface :) Except for those that make a difference, of course.

Had a great valentines yesterday, and even though it is a commercial holiday, money making scheme - It's good to see everyone having fun, single or taken.

I feel like this blog is a load of crap now.. XD Gosh, i'm getting pretty cynical..
Ah well, that's life. Let it rock.

Weigh in: 10.5
A stone and 5 pounds to go!

80%

Not 100% yet, but making the most of it!
Feel a bit urgh still.. and slightly frustrated, but i'm sure that'll pass.
Bring on half term next week! :D
I'll post weigh in on Sunday.
Thanks to the people who are spuring me on, it's pretty amusing though, considering i've only lost half a stone so far.. Still a long road ahead for me :)

LOL.

Charming XD

ILL ILL ILL ILL

Okay i'm like WELL frustrated now, been ill for days! I don't usually get ill easily, but when i do.. Man oh man >:( Had to take day off work too.

I've not been able to eat anything today either - Total loss of appetite, which sucks.
Anyways, negative stuff aside. I had a friend come over and cheer me up today - A good ol' movie day makes the world revolve :) We had a brill time, and yeah, there were a few tears towards the end of 'A walk to remember'.. I won't lie XD

Looking forward to half-term the week after next and hoping i'll be better asap so i can get to college on Monday and see the girls :) and also to the gym!

Message to everyone: Wrap up warm!

Gah!

Yep, still ill..

Spent most of the day in bed, how lovely!
Funny thing is i've have had various guys offering to come over and cheer me up, but ironically enough this is one of those times where i need space to get better, without male attention :P

My arm band came through for my i-pod this morn, and college got cancelled because our teacher couldn't get out of her drive because of the snow (apparently) so that was that.
Just glad i didn't drive in and waste my time.

Just wanna say a Happy birthday on here to Mr Phil, and sorry i can't make it tonight!
Have a funky time :) x

*cough*

Hewo :)

Yet another snow day, and i'm sitting at home ill, it sucks. I was the day before yesterday.. Small signs of a cough but i ingored it, like ya do. Seems that my workout at the gym yesterday, and coming out after with just my t-shirt on has brought it up more :(
So now i'm stuck at home with a chesty cough, and the need to feel sick frequently. Urgh.

Anyways, apart from that, still on track and things are going well. Excelled myself yesterday on the exercise bike doing an hour and 10 minutes straight - I think it's safe to say the shower i had after was AMAZING XD

Also bumped into a few school people at the gym and one guy in particular who my brother has been talking about lately - they train together doing weights at the gym. As i went with my bro yesterday, not only did we manage to get in free (jammy) - But i also saw one of my old sport college mates, the one that my bro has been talking about all this time. He works in one of the leisure centres so trains with my bro regularly. Was nice to catch up :)

Feeling positive about everything i decided to weigh myself today, a bit earlier than scheduled to see where i'm at.
Results: 10.8 stone
Seems i've lost 4 pounds since Sunday.
I'm well pleased. If i carry on at this pace, my goal shouldn't be too far away.
But for now, i have to relax 'till my chest is a bit better.

P.s Chris, you're status about my drunkeness is dated! :D

Herro readers :D

It's day 3 of my healthy eating/training routine and so far so good. I'm really taking this seriously, not just seeing it as some sort of crash diet, which i normally would - and in turn, fail.
& truth be, i'm actually really enjoying it! I love going to the gym and training, makes you feel all energetic after and good :D

When i did sport for 2 years in college about 3 years ago, i played lots of sport and was moderately healthy, but since then, kinda didn't bother. So now's time to change all that!

To help me get motivated i got an ipod shuffle for the gym, ordered an arm band for it, and even bought glass electronic scales to help keep me on track. Extra much?!

As part of my routine, i'm weighing myself every week hoping to see steady progress.
The first weigh in for me was on Sunday. The result was bad for me, which is why i'm being so extreme about this.

I weighed in at 10.12 stone. Pretty heavy no? Well for me this is the heaviest i've been.

I wouldn't usually be so open about my weight, but the reason i am, is because i know it's gonna change, and it's extra motivation :) I'm not like obsessed with my weight or anything, but i just generally wanna lose the excess, tone and get confident again.

I'll keep you updated with it, mainly for my sake, but hey!
I shall be posting each Sunday with the results of the weigh in XD
My final target goal is 9 stone.
It'll take some time, but it's gonna happen!

Get up and go!

So, i stuck to the promise to myself and woke up today (SUNDAY) very early, got out of bed, put some clothes on, did some stretches and headed off to the gym. Now this is extremely unusual for me, as i can admit - I love my sleep, and the last thing i want to do on a Sunday is work up a sweat, but today made me realise life's better when you have something to actually wake up for.

Anyways, in the gym - Me and my gym buddy for the day underwent the exercise bike endurance test, and i won of course :D So as soon as the t-shirt is in my posession i'll be posting it up on here :P I'm sticking to a healthy eating plan and going gym 3 days a week now in order to lose weight and tone, 'cos i hate how i am at the moment!

I'm doing my own personal weekly weight diary to record changes etc. I was considering posting it on here with photos etc. But think that might be a bit too 'Weight Watchers' XD

As long as i've got my i-pod shuffle, sweatband, and some water - I'm all good to go :D
I'll keep ya updated.

P.s I found out the other day i passed my psychology test with top marks and also passed a science exam i took last week :D

Updations

Hey all :)

The past few days have been really good for me. Went to the gym yesterday, worked out 'till i was satisfied, felt better waking up this morning - Full of energy. Got my interview letter through for Hertfordshire university too, looking forward to the maths and english tests for that! :P

Although work was rather dead today, still had a nice day, and an eventful evening ;)

Gym again early tommorow for an exercise bike challenge with a friend who thinks he can endure more than me, so should be interesting - Loser buys winner a t-shirt, so i'll post a pic as soon as i receive my prize :D

Haven't seen a lot of people in ages, so will be nice to see ya's on Monday. However, i won't be participating in the 'eat off' as i'm doing the whole heathy eating thing to shed the pounds, sorry! :)

Below is a funky cover of the Beatle's 'Come Together'. Both singer and guitarist rock :D



P.s How gorgeous is he?!
Always have a thing for musical guys.. oh and vampires XD

Thought of the day

Just talking to my good friend, who also has an overwhelming passion for music - We were talking about guilty pleasures when it comes to songs. I'm sure everyone has a few songs they like, or listen to on repeat but will be embaressed to make it known for whatever reason. For me and Mr H, we don't give a shit really - We like, what we like XD

'Good music is perceptive, great artists however, are not. Whether we chose to listen to them or not, but we can be thankful for their contribution' - Mr H Kishi.

Couldn't have put it better myself!
So to conclude, our guilty pleasures:

Hus's:

http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=M65zI9LH-as&feature=channel (embedding disabled)

Mine:

http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=e8phK_YIRNs (embedding also disabled)

I get by with a little help from my friends

As not many of you know, i've been feeling a bit low recently.. I didn't make it known, as i usually don't.. but it's suprising how there's lack of communication with people these past months.. Don't get me wrong - It's been much needed. But seems like there's no one around sometimes, in the sense of closer friends.

Just wanna say thanks to Mr Andreou, who spent time chatting to me until i was my usual self again, and reminded me of all the positive things about life, and how we should pretty much treasure each day. Sounds obvious and generic, but it's something we all take for granted in our own ways.

So, i hope everyone is well and dandy - Just a little video for everyone out there to reflect.
I'm sure you'll love this one, Chris! :) xx